27 Oct

does anyone have a cap or two to spare? a wig will do in a pinch as well i guess. or maybe i should just make like an ostrich and stick my head into sand.

im not one to read self-help books, never liked any of those. learn life's lessons at its own pace i guess. all in good time. even if the vast majority of my mates have all taken to reading them, i still dun really see the point in doing so. the most startling revelation of all? bear actually likes those too. maybe i should ditch all those sword fantasies and assorted junk i read now? maybe not.

my mates all say im childish, that im too happy-go-lucky, too chin-chai. that i'd take the skies for a blankie if it should ever come crashing down. i dunno, maybe they're all correct in their assessment. heck, even my sis thinks im childish. my younger sis.

i dun really know how to derive the PARF value of a car, watever that is, nor when i will get to break even. i dun wanna know which dad, poor or rich, moved my cheese. just dun touch my candy. i couldn't care less whether u originated from mars, venus, or toa payoh. i hardly save, and if i have X amt of money, i'd prolly spend it, and borrow 2 bucks from you to buy a drink.

hmm, maybe i just dun want to grow up.

u know when u feel that all your innards are constricted, and that ur insides are fallin into themselves? pretty screwed to feel that way. a very apt name to tag it would be the blackhole feelin i suppose. fallen star sounds too drama mama doesn't it?

skipped the trials the last time. elected to go walk around with the dustbin. called the coach up, was informed that there were no more spots left. had a look at the team pic, and i can safely say that i can best all of them in a game of mano-a-mano. sour grapes? i dunno. on hindsight, i'd prolly skip the trials all over again.

im startin to know how to play indifferently. nonchalantly, if u will. best that way. no more black faces all the time, mr smiley is here.

mr Leong! pls go busy yourself with somethin! anythin! eat! hoop! eat! go out! dun think too much! its not very healthy to think too much!