24 july

i've never been much of a decision maker. never was. hee haw, hem haw, if there wasnt an animal already called a donkey, i would have been a donkey.

i always go back to the familiar. part of why i always end up back at the wanton mee stall.

they always say long pain < short pain, short immediate amputation superior to slow rot.

and so, i went at it with a lightsaber. shudda, cudda, wudda, i dont know.

inadequacy or not, projection into the future or not, i went ahead anyway.

be decisive they said, good for you they said... 

not too good now for sure.